Happy Hump Day, y’all!
Yes, I had to take Tuesday off from blogging … woke up late and I was tired, too! I couldn’t get to sleep … had something heavy on my mind Yet, I am back on “my grind” writing about what I find in the human experiences I have and witness.
So, I really didn’t want to write about this but here it goes . . . So, my daughter had come down a few months ago in an attempt to relocate to “this part of the family”. She had my grandson, Caleb Isaac, with her at a meager 8 months of age! What troopers they BOTH are!! Some of my friends in yoga asked me: “Did she take the baby on the train?” I told them, “Yes, of course!” She and I have had our ups and downs; yet, as a father, I sought to keep the relationship alive even though her mother and I had divorced many years ago. I had to move to Cali, Colombia, South America just to get over her! I struggled with personal problems but kept my passion for teaching close to my heart. I didn’t come out of that experience unscathed … but I did come out! I came back to the States and relocated to Florida after spending five wonderful years living and teaching in Cali … Colombia that is! I even found a girl there to marry … and divorce … after 6 months.
While Ayanna and Caleb were here, I got to see them several times …. as I would drive to my sister’s house in Port St. Lucie, FL where they were staying … and she was trying to relocate. As we soon found out, things got more challenging … family issues arose … and things got worse and worse. Finally, she had had enough of discomfort and disillusionment, and, after a most unexpected “family drama” for lack of better less accusatory words, she decided that she would call her mother … my ex-wife living in CT … and asked for help to get back home. Her mother, my ex-wife, sent her train fare on the spur of the moment. I had done my best, as I am struggling a bit to pay off bills and find “affordable housing”, and felt very helpless in the face of “others” selfish and dishonest behaviour! I joked with her as she had planned to leave with her mother in a few weeks anyway, that she had had a good vacation in Florida and, that I had gotten to see my only grandson – Caleb Isaac. The “Isaac” was chosen as his middle name by Ayanna, which is also my middle name and my father’s first name. After spending some quality hours with Caleb, I came to the conclusion that he has a beautiful spirit and a wonderful soul. Right now … I truly have to “Let Go and Let God”! I had some horrific retaliatory thoughts in the midst of the family crisis … But upon praying and meditation, … and tears, I decided that “This, too, shall pass”!
So, in case you go through something like what I am attempting to describe with as much anonymity as possible, just trust in your Creator … things will go better!
Thanks for reading … Miss you guys already Ayanna and Caleb!
Love always,
Educational Excellence 